do you live?

I'm a recent college grad. [insert excitement here]

according to societal norms I should have a job at this point in my life. most likely some entry-level office job (since my ideal job pays no $) that i'll be stuck at for a couple years. it'll serve its purpose of getting me accustomed to making money so i'll never be able to leave in search of my dreams cuz i don't think the 'starving artist' look suits me. @ least my friends and i will be able to share our "happiness" for a couple of hours following our day's end.

unfortunately? (word choice is still up for debate) i still have no job.
instead i spend my days in front of my mac&cheese (macbook pro) searching for a job to teach english in latin america. ay que bueno. my parents have been very supportive of me wasting away at their dining room table (i have no desk), but eventually one (that'd be me) starts to wonder if and when life will start to take direction.

the haunting question lingers over my head: what are you doing with your life? cue: fake smile, witty comment about how i thought living off my parents was a job, and explain that i'm still trying to figure that out. not a satisfactory answer- too bad. there are 2 types of responses from 2 types of adults. 1: the cynics/critics/haters: (generally an older person who hates their life choices) they say: well you have any idea of what you wanna do? [insert my ideal job response] that's a real hard field to break into- everyone's trying to do that. what would you really like to do with your life? <<<< dream killer. 2: the optimists/supporters/dreamers: (generally an older person who followed/tried to follow their dreams) they say: oh don't worry, you have plenty of time to figure it out! <<<< thanks!

i know i don't have all the time in the world...but just give me my time and space...lots of space. and it'll come to me. [crosses fingers and prays]

what am i doing with my life? living it. you should go out and do the same.