i must be crazy.

listening to: ingrid michaelson & rachael yamagata

i saw revolutionary road tonight with the parents. i liked it a lot more than i thought i would. it brings up all sorts of complex themes [not going to list them...check the movie if you wanna know], and they put the machinery in my mind in motion.

at what point do we classify someone as being crazy? someone is crazy if they hear voices? if they have multiple personalities? if they see Jesus in their ice cream?...what about the times people have been called crazy for their ideas? this is the type of categorizing that disturbs me the most. in the film, the most honest, unconventional person was the "crazy" man- needing to receive electroshock therapy [which I despise- see film 'One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest' for further proof] to "heal" him. this man told it like it was. he revealed the innermost thoughts and feelings that everyone refused to discuss out of fear of breaking proper conduct. when the couple decides that their life has become too mundane and expected, he is the only one who understands their need for dramatic change- to heighten their life experience. he gets it. but remember- he is also "crazy". does this mean that since they indulged in larger than life dreams they too were crazy?

...well let's bring that thought back to reality- is that so for all of us who don't want to live the cookie cut life? when we speak out of turn or discuss 'improper' matters are we crazy? sometimes expressing the pure emotions we feel on a daily basis is enough for people to think you've gone slightly insane. the way i see it- we're all kind of nuts. we speak and do irrational things. we laugh, cry, hate, love, freak out, understand, all in a span of 24 hours [not everyday- that would just be exhausting]. but having a few tricks in your bag only makes life a lot more diverse and fascinating...but i suppose it's not for everyone. so if the things i describe are not normal and make me out to be a looney tune then i'll happily take my place in line with the rest of the characters because that crazy life looks a lot more fulfilled than any sane one. :what's up doc?:


inspire me:
"It is only too true that a lot of artists are mentally ill- it's a life which, to put it mildly, makes one an outsider. I'm all right when i completely immerse myself in work, but I'll always remain half crazy."
~Vincent Van Gogh~

"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes 'Awww' "
~Jack Kerouac~

paz y amor siempre.